No eyelashes/eyebrows

Hello, I'm kim. I'm 16 years old and I've dealt with tric since kindergarten. First it started with eyelashes. I would pull them out just for fun. Now it's a habit. Just like some people bite their nails I pull my eyelashes out. A couple years ago I started moving onto my eyebrows. I absolutely hate that I have. My self esteem is so low. I've put on fake lashes and winged eve liner and that's fine. My problem now is my eyebrows. I'm very good a filling them in but a couple months ago my mom and I put some money together and got my eyebrows microbladed. It's basically where someone takes a blade made out of Tiny tiny needles and makes hair like strokes with a semi permanent ink. The first time I got it done the pigment didn't hold completely. I just recently went back in for a touch up and they looked great! Now they are getting patchy and I have to go on vacation soon and I can't fill them in due to infection risk. So here I am at 2:45 am all upset because of this.